Tell me why.

We have come to an end.

2009-12-29T22:54:00.000+08:00

I can't believe this year's coming to an end already.
It's too fast!
I can actually distinctively remember the beginning of this year when I was on Welcome Duty on one Sunday, and the Ushers were scrambling around to set out more chairs for the service-goers because of the huge influx. Sadly though, that number did not keep up and it has dwindled down. But I've made merry with the newcomers and new YMPACTers. Especially toward the end of the year, memories I won't ever forget.

And I can remember entering 3E1 for the first time, standing in the front of the class so Miss Wee could introduce me to the class, and hearing the councillors cheer(: The first time I had to run for Miss Neo's lessons. (It's strangely funny to see half a class run across your ex-class' PE lesson to get to the Chemistry Lab) It's already the end of the year, and more people have transferred in (and out of ) the class, yet sometimes I still feel like an intruder. But the class is still beautiful with its interesting characters. Can't wait to see you lovelies in a week's time!
I remember Miss Banu's Pure Lit classes, epic fun. Gina & I would doodle really stupid things on our worksheets. The girls were always competing against the guys for Miss Banu's favor. Utopia.

The Council has definately grown. And I love that. Well, there is definately times when I want to murder people, but there are other times I wanna hug them so tight, that they, well, it's a good thing. All the ridonkulously long and redundant meetings we had to attend. All the events we had to organize/host. I'm so proud of you guys ♥
I'm gonna step down! (YESSSSAAARRRRRRR!) And new batch of hopefuls are gonna try to make it to Exco. Lord, I pray the new batch of people make a good team and will work collaboratively in order to sustain a Council and meet the needs of the School. I also pray they will have fun doing whatever it is they need to, and whenever they come to a pothole, You'll direct them around it, and strengthen their bonds. OH. remember Scat? Poor Kitty. Despite our stupidly crazy week, Scat made us all very happy for a while(:

Two of my friends have left Singapore for good. Lyza & Andrew, within the SAME week. *sigh* And Russell is leaving next year.Pastor Jon has been appointed to head Paya Lebar Methodist. But thankfully enough, Jazlyn is staying here in PMC.

I thank God for all the new people who've entered my life. And I thank you for being part of my life. Thankyou, You. ♥

Dear Lyza <3

2009-12-27T02:31:00.001+08:00

Hey Lyza,
I will probably never understand to the full capacity of the hurt you are feeling because of horrible circumstances. And at this moment, I cannot tell you that immediately after migrating, your life is gonna be perfect, because I don't know what the odds are against you. All I know is that you're an incredibly strong person, and no matter what, don't ever let anybody or anything change that. Life is not perfect and every single one of us go through trials that we all think we can't overcome. A great someone once said that life is merely a stage, and we are the characters. As someone who has taken drama for a CCA, I'd suppose you'd understand how important it is for a character to do exactly what the script says, because if it doesn't, then the ending will be different from what the writer intended. And I don't think we are in any position to question God's plan for our lives. Things will change, I know it will. And you know what I just learnt recently in sermon? God allows really bad things to happen to us because only when we are desperate for His love will our sincere praise and prayers come out. And when we've realized we need His help more than anything in our lives, we will realize that He has already unlocked a door fir us to walk through.
Wherever you go after today is probably gonna make you feel homesick. You will remember so many incidences here in Singapore. But remember to make new memories wherever you are. You may not know this, but if you spread the love of God to the people around you wherever you may be, then aren't you already doing missionary? And God told us in the Bible to go and tell the nations of Jesus Christ.
You have no idea how incredibly proud I am of you and you probably will never know, because words cannot describe it. But just remember that this girl whom you have mentored will always be there for you, no matter what. Thank God for technology.
I love you like my own older sister, Lyza. We've been through the good times and the bad. And I'm not gonna let this one thing keep us at a distance( pardon the pun ). You are gonna make it through this period of your life, and when you look back, you will be a living testimony.
I'm not gonna say I miss you, because this will not stop our friendship. We will chat often, whether it be over Skype or MSN or facebook or email.
Take care of yourself, dear.
xoxo

Merry Christmas to you too.

2009-12-26T22:00:00.004+08:00

Christmas must be something more(:
Caroling at the different houses was just awesome. It was nice to know that I was part of a group a people who brought song into other people's houses. It was nice to experience Christmas, even if it was just for a little while, because for the first time in fifteen years, my household didn't put up the Christmas tree because shit happens. I thank God for allowing me to find a group of beautifully talented people to serve with. The practices when we'd complain that we were not going to be able to be heard, the sectionals when nobody would know how to conduct like Yi Ying, the little breaks we'd have between practices when Jazlyn, Shakila, Deborah and I would talk about anything under the sky. And on caroling day, the crazy photoshots, Becks and I giggling over everything, singing random old songs on the bus like there was no tomorrow(: Talk about epic fun. Mabel and I freaking out before our item. ON BOTH OCCASIONS(: Stalking cute dogs and gushing over Swan Lake Avenue. People crashing us after our performance in church. Counting down in Russell's place. Yes, caroling was fun. Especially after we left Russell's place, and everyone was sending Christmas texts to people on the same bus as each other(:
Sleptover in church and I got to chat with Gracie. And she is such a fun person to talk too! ( Gracie, what happens in the band room, stays in the band room, okay? (; ) played cards with Gracie, David and Justin. Gosh. Even if I have the best cards, I still lose. The world is unfair.

Christmas day was rather uneventful, though. My highlight of the day: lunch with Audrey, Gracie, Shabbna and Nick at Burger King:D HELLAYREEYUS.

AUDREY. Have fun in KL, and I'll see ya next year! xoxo.

Caroling at Taka (:

2009-12-23T01:02:00.006+08:00

Hello world.
I'm currently at Jazlyn's place, sleeping over with Shakila :D And we made a stupid video just now, and i THINK it's going on Facebook unedited. D:
Anyhoos, Caroling at Takashimaya was awesome(: I just realized that the caroling team has tons of nice people. Just before going up on stage, I completely freaked out because I didn't realize that there was gonna be so many people watching us. And i almost went to breakdown mode. And people just kept hugging me and telling me that it was gonna be okay(: I love you guys. And I pity Ken, he actually said something about me doing well for the sound check. I smiled at him and then I cried. I think I left him stunned. SORRY KEN! The actual performance is pretty scary, I mixed up my third line, but thankfully the microphone was muffled. Everything else from there was just fine. And I kept staring at the huge tree inside Ngee Ann City.
Andrew and Bukhary came, and halfway through the performance, I realized they were videoing us. (COPYRIGHT INFRINGEMENT, GUYS!) So, if you guys playback the video and notice me staring at something, it's the ginormous tree (:
Spammed photos in random people's cameras after that. Now I need to go collect those pictures:( And Daniel, if you read this, the next time you lend me your camera, SWITCH IT ON FIRST! :)

So here's to the Jesus Christ who saved our lives! (:

Takaaaaaaa.

2009-12-22T00:40:00.002+08:00

Taka/Outside Ngee Ann City today. (December 22nd) Evening. Go and support YMPACT'S caroling team. And I'll love you forever (:
<3

I <3 my friends.

2009-12-21T00:27:00.005+08:00

I've got weird friends. One guy keeps bugging me to play a game with him, and when I finally have the time to, he realizes he doesn't know how to play the game. A bunch of girls all text me regarding the same thing at the same time. Another guy apologizes for everything. And another girl giggles every single time I'm with her(: and I love my friends. Be jealous.
Service was pretty cool today, Team Philip reunited! Zven sat in front of me(: and he actually started out next to me, but I kept moving so the other groups could sit And barry's back(: sushi at ehub for lunch with Barry, Rachael, Lydia and Debbie. Smob, Daniel Chia, Isaac, Desmond, Rachel Ong, Justin Ng joined us at the next table later. Caroling went fine, zomg, it's like, next week!!!! Caroling didn't end on time, so Nick, Deborah and I rushed out like mad people to find a taxi to get to Victoria School, and we do stupid things when we desperately need a taxi:D but the concert was coolio, and while waiting for Daniel, Nick gave deb and I a tour of the school. And in deb's words, "it looks like a hotel, lah!"
and now Deborah thinks I should be a VS girl(: that'd be pretty cool, huh? :D
and deb and I were singing under the block opposite my place, and this nice lady stopped to talk to us, and she's coming to Taka to watch us perform!!!
Taka on the 22nd of December. 2030 hours. Go support the carolling team<3

Concert at VS!

2009-12-19T20:25:00.004+08:00

Where do I go from here? When everything I do seems to be wrong. I'm trying to help US, but you don't seem to care that society is looking at us like a social experiment. Doesn't it bother you at all? Gahh.

GOING FOR DANIEL'S CONCERT TOMORROW:):):)

Caroling at Paya Lebar Air Base

2009-12-18T23:12:00.006+08:00

Our first caroling performance today was the bombzxzxz:) I'm so glad I'm in this team of wonderful singers, people who are dedicated to spreading the Christmas Message despite it being the holidays, allowing us to have the time to go out with our friends and stuff. EVERYBODY SOUNDED FANTABULOUS TODAYYYYY!!! I was on top of the world. And Clarice, you're freaking funny. I bet you're happy because you've finally been IN an Air Base, yeah? :D
I think I'm kinda sad that I missed out Jon/Bethy's party, but I had my own party with the caroling people. HEY. WE HAD A PARTY BUS!!!:D

Thank you God, for being faithful and maintaining our voices so they'd sound good for the performance, especially my voice, because it sounded so bad during practice, I was actually shivering. Thank you for keeping us all in good health and for the awesome weather, though we were indoors. (hey, if it were raining, it would be ridonkulously cold inside, which it wasn't) Thank you for an awesome Caroling Comm this year. And thank you for the bus rides, Lord, singing old songs like mad people in the bus is crazy fun, especially when EVERYONE sings;) Thank you for new, encouraging friends. And for the ability to sing of your greatness:)

waepira

2009-12-18T00:33:00.004+08:00

In this euphoric aura that surrounds me, all I think about is you. It seems nearly impossible, I know but still at least I get to dream and be happy in my dreams. No rules, better still, no expectations. The little pixies come alive again and frolick around our feet near the sea. While they splash around in the water, we laugh at their antics. I'm on a high and I greedily indulge in your presence. The sun finally starts to set and it's beautiful. I glance away for awhile but when I turn back, you've left. Where'd you go?

I had a heart-to-heart with my mom just now. I'm glad I matured. I've got the best momma in the entire world.

TOFU & 13th Crossing <3

2009-12-17T15:36:00.004+08:00

Sore throats. Crazy screaming. Stupid chasing monkey. Hunger pangs at weird timings and then NOT eating during meal times. Fangirling. Aimlessly trying to change Zven into a gentleman. Worship with the TOFU team almost everytime. Games with the other teams. Breakfast by the beach. I love Team Philip. To the max. And to think I actually didn't wanna go initially.
I thank God from the bottom of my heart for placing me on a group of awesome people and ZVEN!!! :) the poor boy's probably traumatized by me by now:D I cannot believe this group of fantabulous people readily accepted me into their group despite me not joining them the first day because of TOFU. And everyone was so participative at my station, I was so happy:) It was like God showed me the rewards the entire TOFU team deserved to see for sowing the seeds of labor over the span of a few months. And then 13th Crossing happened. I had amazing bunkmates who loved singing songs in the middle of the night nobody knew the full lyrics to. And nobody within the bunk was complaining or anything. And wonderful groupmates who were encouragingly supportive. Honestly I had a good time and I thank every single one of you who were there and made me have fun,despite this camp being a spiritually heavier one.
The sermons were great too even though I kinda wanted to fall asleep towards the end of most of it. And Ken leads devotion well even though we were kinda unresponsive. The first devotion showed me how to appreciate the little things more and now when I look at the clouds or weirdly bent trees or listen to the sound of the waves crashing against the shore, i'm gonna think about Philip:)
Our encouragement boards were so fantastically, for the lack of a better word, encouraging! All the cards i got from people were so nice to read, it made me feel glad:) including the anonymous one:D plus I absolutely loved the mass games! Talk about teamwork, man. Ohoh! And Daniel takes really unglam pictures of me ( ESPECIALLY WHEN I'M TRYING TO CATCH A WATER BOMB ). And speaking of Daniel, ftw. We waxed his leg:):):)

So I guess it IS time for me to take up my cross daily and deny myself. Yes Ryan, we're all gonna try to be Rooted To The Word now because repetition builds memory:) and because we are the Light of the world, yeah?

" We love because He first loved us. " - 1 John 4:19

To "Justin Bieber",

2009-12-04T05:17:00.002+08:00

Dear Justin B,
I know it's definitely not the real you because I put my blog on private and I've only invites like, 25 friends. I see you're trying to make me feel better, so thank you from the bottom of my heart. I have been having a rough past few days and your tag really cheered me up. You know, I checked the IP address and 9 can't seem to find another tag with the same number. It doesn't mean anything because with Cbox, I'm a bloody noob. But thankyou truckloads to whoever you are for making me smile like some madwoman at 5 in the morning:) if you let me know who you really are, the next time I see you, I'll give you a bigbig hug.

Ohsnoes!

2009-12-01T12:31:00.003+08:00

Justin Bieber is injured!!! My poor boy was opening for Taylor Swift and somewhere between One Time, he tripped and fractured his ankle! The worst part was that he didn't know it then so he continued the entire rest of the song on a broken ankle:( THIS IS SO SAD IT'S DEPRESSING:( Get well soon, Justin! xoxo
damn, my mood just hit ground zero.

Graduating Kinderland

2009-11-30T15:29:00.000+08:00

Looking at these children, i can't help but wonder what they will be like when they grow up. Who's going to be the potential heartbreakers, the gossip girls,the prefects,the in crowd and the out. Because I'm official videographer, I sit at the back of the auditorium and watch. The teachers are running about, trying to get everything done in time. The boys keep rubbing their eye makeup off. The girls want more lipstick. After their run through, the ballerinas come on. Some of them are not as svelte as their counterparts, but primadonnas in my eyes nonetheless. The fact that they keep standing on their tippytoes throughout the entire third dance bores me, but I absolutely adore the first dance. Contemporary ballet. Finally the curtains close. It's the final run. K2 graduants dance out holding a piece of colored paper bearing their names. Yes, they are cute. I hope someday when I've my own kids they'd turn out as cute as this bunch.

To hurt your feelings or not to hurt, that is the question.

2009-11-29T22:08:00.004+08:00

I think it's time for me to voice out exactly what I feel whenever I feel it. I don't like the fact that you know there's something wrong but you don't know what so you're not doing anything about it. I have reasonings and rather substantial ones too, but I don't want to hurt your feelings or anything because no matter what it is, I respect you as a leader and I am pretty sure at your post you get truckloads of crap. So, what do I do? Gahh.

And Deborah sweetie, thank you for being my bestfriend. There are so many other people you could have as bestfriends and I'm honored you chose me;) ILYL:)

postcards you wrote to me.

2009-11-22T17:49:00.004+08:00

This is my first official correspondence to you and I know you will cherish
this postcard as much as I do now, when you become an adult. You are 3 years
old, and together with Uma, [my sister] you have given Mother and me
tremendous joy & happiness. Both you girls have also given us lots of
headaches and anxiety because both of you can be ver stubborn. But our love will
always be with you.
Your loving Father.
(11/6/97)

This month (Jul '97) you & Uma were fabulously naughty! You drove you
mum to the wall... and me to the other wall. But despite your naughtiness,
you were still very charming, a trait which I believe will be with you
throughout your life. Your mother and I are amazed at your level of diction
for you do speak very clearly. Even at this tender age of 3 years & 2
months, you are willing to shoulder responsiblitity and take on the role of an
elder sister which you really are. You do have a very bright future.
Your loving father.
(31/7/97)

The haze, due to the forest fires in Indonesia, affected Singapore badly
especially in Oct '97. We hardly saw the sun! In fact, the only time we saw the
sun was today (10/11/97) & in the afternoon, the much awaited rains
came.This is the belated arrival of the NE monsoons.
On 7/11/97 at 3.30pm we all went to St. Paul's Kindergarten off Upper
Serangoon Road. This was to attend the orientation for you girls as you and
Uma would commence your nursery classes in Jan /98. We look forward to
it.
Your loving father.
(7/11/97)

In Aug '97, the most memorable incident was the evening you insisted
in bringing out into the 13th storey corridor, the Tweet Bird balloon that we
had purchased earlier at the Hougang NTUC Mall. Uma crept behind you and hit
your hand, thus releasing the balloon. It hung in the air momentarily and what a
sight it was! You cried uncontrollably and even said, to quote, "Goodbye, Tweety
Bird" as it flew higher and higher till it vanished from sight.On 30th Aug, we
took the night train to Seremban to visit my grandmother. The following day,
31st Aug '97, the world was shocked by the tragic death of Princess Diana of
Great Britain in a car accident in Paris.
Your loving father.
(3/9/97)

This month marks the last days of your 'babyhood'. Come 5/2/98, you
and Uma will open the first chapter of your education life when you girl
commence yournnursery classes at St. Paul's Kindergarten. Your grandfather is
very ill. We may visit Kuantan towards the end of the month, depending on the
circumstances, especially the rainy weather. Today is my payday. As promised,
I will buy the toy that you asked for. Come to think about it, there are MANY
toys that you've asked for. If my work commitments does not extend late into
the night as been the case lately, we will go shopping today.
Merry X'mas!
Your loving father.
(12/12/97)

Happy New Year!
In 3 days time, (5/1/98) you & Uma will being your nursery classes at
St. Paul's Kindergarten. Unfortunately, due to a court case [ my father used
to work with the Courts very often ] I will not be taking you girls to St.
Paul's, but mother will be. She is very thrilled, happy and excited over you
girls going for your nursery classes. She cannot believe that it has been three
years since you girls came into our lives & brightened our hearts and
hopes. Both of you were equally responsible in driving us mad with your
mischeivousness & stubborness. But you are our girls! That's all that
matters.
Your ever exasperated but loving father.
(2/1/98 )

It's been 2 months since Jan '98 when I last wrote to you but in
this period, a lot of changes took place. Firstly, on 15/2/98, I turned 41 and
during the month of Feb '98, you & Uma were sick. On 4/3/98, we finally sold
our home to one Mr & Mrs Justin for ----- & on 19/3/98 we bought a
smaller but cozy flat at Blk 475 Pasir Ris. Mother and I decided to leave
Hougang for Pasir Ris because of the proximity to the beach and parkwhich we
know you girls are going to love. Mother and I also decided on it on nostalgic
reasons. When you girls grow up, perhaps Mother will tell you more about it. And
sadly yesterday,22/3/98, we bade farewell to our Indonesian maid Winarsih, who
had to go home. You girls took her departure badly and cried at the airport. We
then proceeded to Orchard Plaza to choose a new maid Mala, a Srilankan.What a
month!
You loving father,
(23/3/98)

Yesterday was your birthday and you turned 4. Happy belated birthday
greetings!
Your loving father.
(12/5/98)

What happened to these postcards? Did you change and totally forget them? Or did they mean nothing to you? You will probably never know how much I treasure these cards, and I'll keep them for the rest of my life, because it's the last bit of a father I actually felt from you. I will probably never be able to say I love you, but I do appreciate the nice things you used to do for me.

D:<

2009-11-15T17:55:00.002+08:00

Fly away.

Go away.

Get lost.

Scram.

Shoo.

I feel like grabbing you by the neck and strangling you. Die, won't you all?

I guess there's no such thing as simplicity. How can anything involved in MY life be complicated at all? I'm like, the worst person on the surface of the earth to handle complicated stuff. Well at least it's my priorities, right? I do what I want to. I mean, it's not like I'm ignoring my duties or something.

waepira.

2009-11-14T23:26:00.004+08:00

As far as dreams and imagination can go, I guess that's where I need to draw the line. Reality is too harsh a place for you and me. But at least I have time to myself with the fantasy of seeing all these little daydreams come alive. Like pixies dancing to the rhythm in my head, following a melody only I know. I'll sit on the fields and sing my song and you can run about. Both of us will finally be free. Free from personification and lying. We will finally be honest about everything. When the rain falls, you, me and the pixies can dance about. Drench our clothes. Soak in the atmosphere. When the winds come, we'll lift up ourselves to let them carry us away and gentle touch all the flowers of the field. If the sun shines down on us, we will take a nap among the little woodanimals that'll protect us with their little hearts. And when we finally meet again, we could, well maybe that's for you to fill up. But, where I need to stop, I'll stop. I guess it's here. When I wake up from my dreams and realize what I've got. Nothing. Because, life's too bloody unfair.

doublebiking.

2009-11-13T17:05:00.002+08:00

I'm glad you're happy, I really am :)

TODAY WAS AWESOME!

yay doublebikes and resting in sand :D

I'm so grateful that my knees are okeydokey!

And I can't wait for OBS!

NEXT WEEK, BABY!

add math tuition

2009-11-10T17:46:00.002+08:00

I wanna be smart :(

I'm gonna have my first Add Math tuition in an hour D:

gahh.

All for tryna be smart.

(Yes, I initiated this on my own )

HEYHEYYOUYOU!

2009-11-09T16:54:00.004+08:00

SCs!

Lyza, Waynn, Jiaen and I are planning an outing for the second and third batch of councillors.

The Wednesday after next.

Contact any of us for details :)

3E1 GIRLS!

Artiqah wants us to crash her place to bake chocolatey stuff! But the book we got was borrowed from the school library on the last week of school, so we need to get it done beofre she has to return the book. But we're looking at only less than 10 people, or else we'll have to overflow into her room :)

Contac either one of us asap, okay?

weighty issues.

2009-11-09T14:34:00.002+08:00

I need to lose weight.

Okay, I'm not one of those skinny like hell girls who still think they're fat.

But I still need to lose weight.

GAHHHH.

This is it.

2009-11-07T22:15:00.002+08:00

You annoy me so much, I don't think you're blogworthy. Rot and die.

I can fix up your heart, I can give you a brand new
start.
I can make you believe.
-Justin Bieber

Oh, bless your little heart, Justin.

yet life must go on.

2009-11-06T23:30:00.003+08:00

Death.

It's inevitable. It cut and tears our insides up, like a pair of scissors to a piece of paper. Most of the time, we mourn in the presence of loved ones, our family and friends. We cry our eyes out, because it seems like the sane thing to do. Emotions that override our mental well-being. We become weak, both physically and psychologically, therefore we become subject to the bullcrap other homo sapiens give us, because after all, it IS the best time to suck up and inherit family fortune. Yet in the midst of the pain and seemingly endless torture, we need to remember the best moments of the dimissed's live. Celebrate the live that is now returning to the Creator. And treasure the wisdom that one learnt from a life lived.

Friend's gramma passed away. My deepest condolences and prayers go out to Friend, and Friend's family. At the house, I just looked at Friend's Gramma and all I could do was wonder. She had a beautiful purple sari on, creased in all the right places. She lost tons of weight during hospitalization. I noticed the faintest of lipgloss on her lips. She had no makeup on. Yet her hands were deathly pale. [No pun intended] Laid to rest in a white casket, she had a Bible in her hands. What will it be like when I finally go home to my Father? Will people attend my funeral? Will I be decked out in a pretty dress? Will somebody put on my best face for the last time? What color would my casket be? But most importantly, will you be there?

ELLE AND MY COINBOX!

2009-11-05T20:00:00.003+08:00

EH, ELLE! THERE'S 3!!!! xo

i LOVE my aishahelle.

Zooming through Tampines1, Tampines Mall & Century Square like tourists in our own country. Actually, that was kinda fun :D

Keychains.

2009-11-04T17:07:00.002+08:00

I think, I'm lucky.

I was at Whitesands this morning, Mother and Sister were having breakfast at the tiny Hongkong place on the second floor. While they were ordering their food, I sat alone at the table, thinking of a friend. This young man walks up to me and places a card on my table, along with a keychain.

Hi, I'm deaf. Would you like to make a small donation of
$6.....

Without thinking I took my wallet out and realized my mother just gave me money to buy a dress. I could a) ignore the guy and get my dress or b) donate to the guy, make him happier, and spend less on my dress. I decided on the latter.

Proudly enough, I felt butterflies in my stomach after that. The kind you get when you're about to address the entire school. Or tell your bestfriend that her skirt makes her look fat.

I watched the guy walk away, smiling. Grateful. I watched him all the way until my neck hurt from twisting around too much. I turned back and I did what would have made Deborah proud. I said a prayer in public, with my eyes shut and my fingers clenched together.

When I opened my eyes, I felt tears down my face. But they were happy tears.

Thank you God for making me perfect the way I am.

Thank you God.

2009-11-01T16:00:00.002+08:00

Thank you God.

Thank you for letting Vivien give the talk she did today. It was exactly what I needed.

Thank you for your grace and your love. You didn't leave my questions unanswered. I didn't even pray about it, yet you answered it anyway.

Thankyou God.

I think I really love my Small Group. :)

Lunched with the TOFU girls. MAC'S EVM;UPSIZED!

eh,eh. tanjong rhu!

We'll be better off somehow. Someday, ♥

Tofuuuu :)

2009-10-31T18:40:00.002+08:00

We're not going ahead with the Tofu castle thingy:(

Anyhoos, today was HELLARIOUS, especially the final video! And Deborah's Deborah moments. I swear I love my bestfriend. ♥

I can't wait for the entire thing to come out.

AND OH.

Soccer and caroling tomorrow with Mac's in the middle! Extra-Value Meal;Upsized :)

WAYNN ANG!

How come you didn't tell me you were going to Japan until the moment you were in the plane?!?!!?? >:(

And you can see my heart beating, you can see it through my chest.

And I'm terrified, but I'm not leaving.

Know that I must pass this test, so just pull the trigger. ♥

last day of secthree!

2009-10-30T16:36:00.002+08:00

It's officially the last day of school.

This time next year, I'd be almost done with my secondary school life.

Wow. That's kinda fast, don't you think?

>:(

2009-10-29T18:59:00.003+08:00

Hell yeah, I'm disappointed.

Here I am cut and bruised and all you can think about is if the house is clean, because my friends came over for a glass of water.

What more do want from me?

Rot and die.

That's what you get when you let your heart win ♥

arghteacar.

2009-10-27T18:50:00.004+08:00

I don't think I need to say any more :)

Dear You,

2009-10-27T01:41:00.007+08:00

I know in this fast-paced world, everything may seem to be a blur. Things that are crucial may not seem important. And the trivial of things may appear dauntingly necessary. In the process of living day-to-day, we may hurt the people around us, people we love, or otherwise. In any situation, civil citizens will try to make good and carry on with life, but do we even try to be sincere about our apologies?

In these few days that have just past, I seem to have time on my hands, and I've been thinking alot. More than usual. I need to know how I can make every single person in my life feel appreciated, because every single one of you have definately made a difference in my life. I am who I am because a bit of you influenced a tiny part of me. If you look closely, you'd be able to see you in me. I guess you are the flame to my candle wick. The sunshine in my day. The melody in my song. Basically, you complete me.

I suppose there will be times when I can verbally tell you how much I am thankful to you, but isn't talk supposed to be cheap? But I want you to know that when I thank you for anything you do, be it big or small, I mean it from the bottom of my heart. There are so many reasons why I should thank God for placing you in my life, and I need to start now, or I'll never finish in time for Heaven.

I pray that I will be able to help to you, that same way you have helped me countless times before. I'll be your friend, sister, confidante. And I'll try to be your motivation, inspiration and reason just like every one of you are to me.

And I don't know why when I'm with you, I dance in a storm, in my best dress; fearless. ♥

argh.

2009-10-27T00:28:00.002+08:00

You make me feel like my insides are wrenched.

I wait for you so long, and you still ignore me.

Worse, you make me wait even longer.

What more do you want from me?

I check on you every single day of my life, or at least I try to.

Don't I make you feel wanted in a good way?

DAMN YOU, FACEBOOK, and your darn lagginess.

you and your screwed up face.

2009-10-26T00:21:00.002+08:00

Yup, just as I thought things were getting okay again.

What the heck's your major problem?

Is it your life mission to make me feel miserable every second of my life?

Gosh.

And now you're actually trying to take away the Church from me?

Wow.

Fine. I won't go to church.

But two people can play this game.

It's all the same, another time, another place.

Repeating history and you're getting sick of it. ♥

Nivaa ♥

2009-10-22T17:42:00.003+08:00

My little pumpkin.

It's been forever since I saw you, and I'm glad at least one of us has since the other recently:)

I don't know why, but I see you like my own younger sister. Maybe it's because I see so much of me in you.

I want you to know, that no matter where you are, which school you decide to settle in, or CCA you finally get vacuumed into, there's always someone who cares, and will listen, no matter what the situation is.

I can't believe you're only 14. You act and speak older than that. You can easily mix in with people older than you (ahemahem).

I miss you so much.

Let's try our hand at world domination, okay? (:

♥

No matter what, you'll never see me cry ♥

I heart 3E1!

2009-10-15T13:38:00.006+08:00

My class gave up on studying for the last two papers of the exam. Well, at least, the guys whom I sit around, and I. So much so that for our MCQ papers, we actually used our calculators' Random Dice function to provide us answers. 1-A, 2-B,3-C,4-D,5-Try Again,6-Skip.

For our break the guys and Bob, Arghteacar, Jawesome and I went to the fitness corner. The guys are so full of nonsense. They claim to go there to train on their inclined pull-ups for next year's NAPFA. ( think machismo )

Guess what they ended up doing. Balancing on the stubs of whatever's leftover of some board thingy and pushing each other of it. HELL-ARIOUS :D

Walking up to class, I was living disaster. I was laughing so hard, I couldn't climb up the staircase. I had to hang onto the railing so hard, the paint chipped off onto my uniform. And Bob kept squirting water at Nicholas with her Squeezee bottle:) He was DRENCHED by the time the second paper started! He kept saying: Let the sun/wind evaporate me.

Yeah, evaporate away, Nicholas :)

It’s hard to find the words, to get to know this stranger <3

Kinderland's bunch of three year olds.

2009-10-13T18:21:00.003+08:00

My mom's colleagues are so cute!

And the kids, sigh.

Especially the 3 year old class.

And the group of kids I was working with :)

***

Uploading pictures onto Twitter (:

I know that I love you, but let me just say. I don't wanna love you in no kind of way ♥

Battle.

2009-10-09T18:16:00.001+08:00

You thought we'd be fine
All these years gone by
Now your askin me to listen
Well then tell me bout
everything
No lies we're loosin time
Cause this is a battle
And its your final last call
It was a trial, you made a mistake, we know
But why arent you
sorry, why arent you sorry, why?
This can be better, you used to be happy,
try ♥

Colbie Caillat, Mikal Blue.

Emilie and Theodore ♥

2009-10-05T21:13:00.002+08:00

Meet Emmy and Teddy ♥

My mother got them at Ikea for me, for no reason at all.

So I'm gonna use it and motivate myself to do well at in the exams. I tell you, my test results are HORRIGBLE. I shall not explain any further.

Listening to Jojo now :)

'Cause I need you to show me how our love really should be ♥

10 little birds and Deborah's overactive imagination.

2009-10-04T18:18:00.003+08:00

I tell you, I love Deborah Chew.

But the girl has an overimaginative mind.

*EH, DEB. THE "HINTS" DON'T WORK WITH ME! HAHAHAHAH*

Seriously, I cannot get any work done when I'm her.

Gahh.

Before our hearts decide, it's time to love again. ♥

finally happy.

2009-10-03T14:53:00.004+08:00

Oh dearie me.
I don't think I'm gonna give a damn anymore.
I'm gonna do what I do best and not feel insecure anymore, even if I don't have your support.
I'll live my life, and you live yours, okay? I don't really need you.
So you just sit back and watch me shine.

So what if it hurts me?
So what if I break down?
So what if this world just throws me off the edge
my feet run out of ground
I gotta find my place
i wanna hear my sound
dont care about other pain infront of me
cause I'm just tryna be happy, yea. Just wanna be happy, yea ♥

Medan.

2009-10-01T18:48:00.001+08:00

MEDAN'S POSTPONED.

like four days back.

We're leaving on the 20th now.

Man, I pray I get to go and they won't cancel it last minute.

Either way I don't wanna wake up on you ♥

LMAO.

2009-09-30T15:34:00.000+08:00

WHEN THE EFF DID YOU CARE?

Don't try to pin this down on my darling, it's your fault and we ALL know it :)

Oh, poor you!

failz :(

2009-09-30T15:21:00.005+08:00

I am gonna fail my chemistry paper so badly and live to feel humiliated for the rest of my life. And Physic's not any further either, although I'm relatively happier with the retest results.

Remind me to convert the Word Documents for Jawsome, please?

And start on the mini-project.

Passport's in for Medan :D I'M SO EXCITED.

But I'd have to get through the exams first. Gah.

For the first 15 minutes of English,I was forcing myself to not fall asleep.For the last 15 minutes, I was choreographing dance steps to a song I didn't know the title of. Or artist. How failed is that?

Imma hungry kiddo.

ONE PAPER DOWN.

2009-09-28T18:39:00.002+08:00

I have officially started my exams. Damn.

Pray for me, please?

I love the people I sit with :) They are just about as retarded as I am dyslexic with Tamil! :D

you showed me something that i couldn't see.

Open my eyes let me see♥

try.

2009-09-24T20:36:00.002+08:00

Perhaps it really is the only thing we can do on this world.

But what about the courage to try?

What if I don't have enough of it to carry me through? Then what do I do? Stand as a bystander and pretend nothing ever happened?

I'll just take the cue from Miss R: "If you can't do anything about it, you can't. It's not like you didn't try,"

Wise, Miss R, very wise, indeed.

This is for the councillors who stayed back to help out with
the PTM just now:
I love you guys to bits! Every single one of you make a
difference to this team, and I appreciate every single one of you ♥

Feel it coming in the air and the screams everywhere.

I'm addiced to the thrill, it's a dangerous love affair ♥

Hide and seek.

2009-09-19T16:42:00.000+08:00

Hide and Seek
Jeremiah 29:13“ And you will seek Me and find Me, when you search for Me with all your heart.”

My Search for God
Do you remember when you were little and you would play a game of hide and seek? One thing I remember vividly is the way it felt when I was “IT”. I can sum it up in one word: Lonely. I used to dread having to look for people, but I loved the feeling I got when I found the first person. It meant that I was no longer “IT.” The person whom I had found now had my burden and became “IT” on the next round. Is it coming back to you yet?

The Bible records the ultimate game of Hide and Seek. We are lonely, lost and sick of being “IT.” We are desperate for an encounter with God. Just like in the game, if we search for God diligently we will find Him. Except unlike the game, God is not hiding from us. When we find Him he then takes our sin burden and carries it away, In response we repent and turn away from our sins. God gives us every capability to find Him. One way to start is through His Word. It is a reassuring feeling to know that I will never be “IT” again in my relationship to God.
Isaiah 55:6-7“Seek the Lord while He may be found, Call upon Him while He is near. Let the wicked forsake his way, and the unrighteous man his thoughts; let him return to the Lord, and he will have mercy on him; and to our God for he will abundantly pardon.”

Today’s Prayer:
Thank You Lord for making yourself approachable and giving me the chance to find you. I want to search for you all my life, may I never give up. Thank you for delivering me from the awful sin burdens I had when I didn’t know you. I love you Lord, Amen.
Written by Martha E Menne, Flagstaff Arizona

How undeniably true.

Liquidified to mush.

2009-09-19T14:10:00.003+08:00

This revolution.

This fear.

This pain.

I'm so, so sorry.

I didn't mean to.

This week has been long, and I have a million things on my mind. I want to throw it all away. Yet, for some obscene reason, I can't. I'm sorry I reacted the way I did. I didn't mean to blow.

So, I'm just gonna let the rain fall down and wash my tears away. Don't mind me.

And once again, I'm sorry.

And to Deborah,

thank you for answering the phone and listening to me cry on the phone. On a normal day, I'd be self-conscious about the people staring at me cry on the way home, but you made everything be about me. I didn't care, as long as you listened. And you did. Thankyou so much. You're my angel. You don't know how thankful I am for having you as a best friend.

Melvyn, Microsoft's Pikachu Boy.

2009-09-16T15:38:00.003+08:00

LOL MELVYN.

He's singing the Pikachu song.

And he's next to me. In the Computer Lab! HAHAHAH.

And just because he has unlimited texts, he was spamming me with 'G' s. And retarded answers:D

I can't believe I actually can do Chemistry in English, just because I didn't wanna do it at home.

HA. Guess what. The comprehension that I diligently did yesterday, thinking that my sad classmates had to do it class today, didn't need to be done at all! They just continued on to the summary part, which I didn't do, because I hate summaries. (I cannot summarize for the life of me. Yes, I'm long-winded)

Damn.

*Bubbles are dramatic*

OHOHOH. He's showing me dumb videos of Who wants to be a Millionaire :) While both of us doing our homework! Hah. Who said multi-tasking was impossible?:) :) :)

State the method you would use to prepare the salt Magnesium Sulphate. State the chemicals you will need and write a word equation for the reaction.

LOOBY.

WE NEED TO TALK! IMPORTANT TO THE HIGHEST DEGREE.

Ah, Kanye West. It seems the entire world and beyond is against you. And I'm one of them.

What orbits around Earth? The Sun.
Which is bigger, the moon or an elephant? An
elephant.
LMAO.

I will stand by you forever. You can take my breath away.

slipped away.

2009-09-15T20:08:00.003+08:00

And so were slipping away again.

Strangely, I don't care. Not one single bit. Why?

tell me are you up for the challenge? ♥

Lunch at Swensens!

2009-09-13T18:51:00.004+08:00

FIRSTLY,

Aunty Priscilla's Sermon was awesomepossum.

Awesomepossum to the maxxx.

She should do sermons more often. The entire small group liked it! :D

After service and small group, went for lunch with UNITE Group 4 at Swensens.

Kept laughing like a madwoman, because crazy people like CLARICE TAN loves doing crazy shit when people go AWOL. :) And Zven is the absolute cutest! *smiles contently*

OMG. I LEFT THE BALLOON IN CHURCH! *slaps forehead!*

The sad balloon from Swensens :(

Anyhoos, I found out something just now, something Deborah told me.

Sigh, I suppose we can't trust the entire world. That is alot of people.

After all, this is a harsh, cruel, unforgiving world. And who am I? Just a mere mortal. Despite the fact that I give and give so much, I can't even receive the least amount of respect from you. So what was I expecting, exactly? For you to shout to the world that I'm normal? Nope, not at all. There's so little time left in this world to waste them on you, to waste them away, wishing and hoping against destiny that you would be sane even for a split second. Yet alas, this mortal of no value cannot even ask for that. Woe is me :(

So maybe it's true, that I can't live without you

Well maybe two is better than one

There's so much time, to figure out the rest of my life

And you've already got me coming undone

And I'm thinking two, is better than one♥

damn you Tetanus jab.

2009-09-09T19:23:00.003+08:00

DISCLAIMER:

This post is filled with the anger of having to do all the household chores today on my own, with an arm that refuses to work. It hurts like hell when I try to move it, so I channelled the pain here. You don't have to read this post. I'll forgive you. And still love you all the same ♥

Today, I got shot.

(No, I'm not dead.)

With a bloody long needle. Filled with some Tetenus thingy. That's supposed to prevent me from falling sick at Pulau Ubin for Outward Bound. I tell you, my sister is Dr Wong's LOUDEST patient EVER. So irritating :/ She was screaming and screaming so much, the admin nurse from outside kept peering in to see if everything was okay. And I was like, omg, shut up. GAHH. Despite the fact that I was nice enough to take the damn jab first ( I WAS SCARED TOO! ) she refused to take the stupid injection. Thank goodness Dr Wong didn't give her the choice, or else she wouldn't be able to go to OBS and would be screaming at me later on. Bless your soul, Dr Wong.

Speaking of whom, I hadn't gone to his clinic in like, 63187042689 billion years, he forgot me. HE FORGOT MY SISTER, HIS REGULAR PATIENT, HAS A TWIN SISTER. AND HE'S SUPPOSED TO BE MY FAMILY DOCTOR. i feel so unloved D:

OHOH. the damn fee was 65 Dollars! And the polyclinics don't do the full body check-up thingy. How efficient. Darn you, Polyclinic.

There's no room left for thinking, I'm tired of waiting. Slowly fading, it needs to happen now ♥

OH! HI RUSSELL!

Happy Teachers' Day! ♥

2009-08-31T19:26:00.004+08:00

haha, screw my hair!

TODAY WAS AWESOMEZXZXZXZ.

I thought the entire teachers' day plan thing was going to crash and burn, but surprisingly, it didn't:) Thank you, God. And I officially hate Moses Hoo Xian Yong. The bloody cow went and doodled on my dear planner, like every damned month has his name on it and stuff. Now it looks: vandalized :(

And I need to say, I love my friends. GAH. Delsar Phua Shi Hui is like effing funneh. :D :D :D

I didn't even know she could be that crazy!

Ahh, I need to complete that something for you, Deborah. I've got the notebook already, but typing it is hard but, because I love you... (:

Steal the night

Kill the lights

Feel it under your skin

Time is right

Keep it tight

Cos it's pulling you in

Wrap it up

Can't stop cos it feels like a overdose ♥

i ♥ Deborah.

2009-08-30T21:00:00.003+08:00

Today is the most bittersweet-est day of my life.

I honestly love Deborah so much, words apparently can't express it.

She always wants me to be happy, even if she's not.

Face it, I've got the World's BEST bestfriend(:

I like rain.

It reminds me of cleansing.

Like God washing away my sins.

I wanna change blogskin(:

And my mom signed my consent form for Unite, even though she didn't tell me that she did, which is a far cry from what she told me last week,( It's at night:/) And Bertrand was telling us how all TOFU members needed to go! But Deb's not coming D:

Tieing balloons with Loony, Sam,Del, Arun and Agnes were fun. Arun is retarded :D

And I managed to get Deborah into my school to help out! Which is so cool(:

And like how Miss Tan introduced her to Mr Lau: "foreign talent"! HAHA.

*Deborah's 1000 % Singaporean, though*

I like detangling the silver cord! And searching for random countries on the World Map at Miss Mary's Table.

And I'm gonna keep my ribbon for like, ever :D

I shall end my blog post the same way i sorta started it:)

I love you Deborah!

OH. And remind me to properly teach you CPR, so you can save me when I forget to breathe, or do something stupid like that! But thanks for trying to learn on the spot! Your concern serves as a constant reminder that I am one lucky girl(:

I don't want just anyone to hold, I don't want my love to go to waste, I want you and your beuatiful soul♥

Screw this shit.

2009-08-27T20:07:00.003+08:00

EPIC FAIL :(

DON'T TRY TO PUSH EVERYTHING ON ME JUST BECAUSE I SMILE AND TELL PEOPLE I'M OKAY.

I'M A PERSON. JUST LIKE YOU. AND I HAVE FEELINGS TOO. AND SO DO MY COUNCILLORS. PUSH ME AROUND, I'LL COMPLAIN TO MYSELF. PUSH MY COUNCILLORS AROUND, YOU'RE GONNA HAVE TO DEAL WITH THE TANTRUM I'M GONNA THROW AROUND. I tried to be nice to you, I really did try, no matter what people said, I still listened to your nonsense for the simple reason that you didn't do anything as horrible to me. But I guess I was just so damn gullible.

WAKE UP CALL TOMORROW MORNING AT 7am!

Thanks Del, Jawesome, Sharan, Arun, Agnes and Microsoft, for staying back to learn the damn dance just now.

And sorry Sam, Alan and Microsoft for snapping off at y'all. Especially Microsoft(: I love you guys lah!

We arrived because we stuck together, champions; one in all(: ♥

Planner: Lost then Found(:

2009-08-26T19:09:00.003+08:00

My Planner has made its way back into my arms!!!!

ZOMG. I lost it for a few hours, like, overnight, and almost died. It was in school, and I searched HIGH AND LOW for it but I couldn't bloodyhell find it! ALL my important dates were in it, and practically my ENTIRE life is in it! I almost cried. But thank goodness, someone found it and returned it to the Office, and the Office lady tried to call me, but I didn't pick up.(for some unexplainably important and valid reason) So thankyou nice person who returned it, and the Office lady :D

Today was routine. But I've been eating too much again. GAHH.

Stayed back for the THINGY.( I shall refer to it as the THINGY from now until the THINGY comes to an end. For all of you who know what the THINGY is, good for you. For all of you who don't; two words. HA HA. )

And celebrated my siser's Bestfriend's birthday.

HAPPY BRITHDAY SUBAAAAAAAA :D

smashed cake in her face so much, it looked like face cream!

HAHAH.

And I did some stupid Marigold Ice Lemon Tea Advert on the spur of the moment.

Bloody embarasing. I didn't know my sister was video-ing it for real:/

If I'm a bad person, you don't like me

Well, I guess I'll make my own way

It's a circle, a mean cycle

I can't excite you anymore

Where's your gavel? Your jury?

What's my offense this time?

You're not a judge but if you're gonna judge me

Well sentence me to another life. ♥

Amira's Note ♥

2009-08-25T15:05:00.000+08:00

I got this from Amira's Facebook note.
So I'm gonna credit her for this.

The truth about forever ♥ ( the random rant) By Amira Sinomosiko.

Sat at 11:54pm
In life we do things. some we wish we had never done, some we wish we could replay a million times in our heads, but they all make us who we are. And in the end, those experiences shape every detail about us. If we were to reverse any of them, we wouldn't be at the exact place that we are today.

As we grow up, we learn that even the one person that wasnt supposed to EVER let you down probably will. You will have your heart broken probably more than once and its harder every time. Youll break hearts too, so remember how it felt when yours was broken. You will fight with your best friend, you will blame a new love for the things an old one did. You will cry because time is passing to fast and you will eventually lose someone you love. So take many pictures, laugh too much, and love like youve never been hurt because every 60 seconds you spend upset is a minute of happiness you will never ever get back.
Lets just live. Make mistakes, and have wonderful times but never ever second guess who you are, where you have been, and most importantly, where it is that you are going.

A really rocking angelic babe said this to me
"life aint meant to be perfect. Its actually all abt dancing in the storm. Finding unhappiness in happiness. Finding comfort in fear. Using what you fear most as a motivation. :)" That ill always remember :)

The feeling you get when you look up at the sky at night
and see the lights from a thousands stars shining down &
realising that there is absolutely no limits to what we are capable of.

The fresh smell of the night sky.

updated songlist :D

2009-08-19T19:39:00.003+08:00

Yes, I've updated my song playlist yet another time.

Math is getting better, thanks Jolene, for clearing my doubts earlier(:

YAYAYAY.

I need people to pass-me-down their clothes mann. And shoes.

I have no more clothes/shoes D:

And my stomach hurts D: D:

sigh. it's not gonna affect me anymore. and you don't even know. so go around spreading stuff about me, i don't really care(: i've been through too much shit already. just don't tire yourself too much, ok? people will DIE without your presence, you know. you're that important.

I love Marie Digby. This song was stuck in my head all day!

Can we pull through this avalanche? ♥

Eddie the doodle :)

2009-08-18T14:47:00.005+08:00

IM-ed with Eddie yesterday and I was laughing my guts out

Eddie is freaking funny, I tell you. I think he can single-handedly make ANYONE'S sore throat go worse, even if you're miles and miles away. And at this rate, Eddie, by the time you come back, I'll still have my darn sore throat D:

But he drew me three pictures yesterday, which I find cute. And here they are (:

OH. INTRODUCING...... EDDIE THE DOODLE!

He randomlydrew this while we were chatting, and i thought it was cute. So I told him i wanna steal it and if he wanted me to credit him. He said to name it Eddie. I said Eddie the what? He said Doodle. And I was thinking of exactly the same thing :D

This was after I realized when I was walking to school yesterday, they were still in the plane, flying back to Japan.

And this was after he said something funny, and I laughed really high-pitched. Unfortunately, it came out as a screeched, and my dog stared at me :/

SEE EDDIE, I BLOGGED ABOUT YOU. NOW GO FEEL PROUD AND TELL ALL YOUR FRIENDS :D I'm a nice person(:

Change.

2009-08-13T19:37:00.002+08:00

Thank you Deborah, for the recommendation ♥

And it's a sad picture, the final blow hits you

Somebody else gets what you wanted again

You know it's all the same, another time and place

Repeating history and you're getting sick of it

But I believe in whatever you do

And I'll do anything to see it through

Because these things will change, can you feel it now?

These walls that they put up to hold us back will fall down

It's a revolution, the time will come for us to finally win

We'll sing hallelujah!

We'll sing hallelujah! Oh

So we've been outnumbered, raided and now cornered

It's hard to fight when the fight ain't fair

We're getting stronger now from things they never found

They might be bigger but we're faster and never scared

You can walk away and say we don't need this

But there's something in your eyes says we can beat this

'Cause these things will change, can you feel it now?

These walls that they put up to hold us back will fall down

It's a revolution, the time will come for us to finally win

We'll sing hallelujah!

We'll sing hallelujah! Oh

Tonight we standed on our knees

To fight for what we worked for all these years

And the battle was long, it's the fight of our lives

Will we stand up champions tonight?

It was the night things changed, can you see it now?

These walls that they put up to hold us back fell down

It's a revolution, throw your hands up, 'cause we never gave in

We'll sing hallelujah!

We sang hallelujah!

Hallelujah.

sick.

2009-08-13T11:06:00.001+08:00

I've got a horrigible sore throat and fever. I don't even know why I got it. This is bad, I tell you.
Damn. I so hope I'll get better before friday. GAH. Exams are coming up and it's the perfectly wrong time to fall sick. This sucks,I tell you. IT'S SO FREAKING BORING AT HOME. And my father took the day off, for who knows what reason.

Martha Steward made me so sad today.
And teevee is boring in the morning.
And Blogger disease finally hit my account.

Somehow, everything's gonna fall, right into place.
If we only had a way to make it all, fall faster everyday.
If only time flew like a dove.
Well, God, Make it fly, faster than I'm falling in love♥

I LOVE DEBORAH CHEW LIAN LING.

2009-08-11T19:16:00.004+08:00

I guess it's finally certain.
I think it's kinda cool that Deborah and I go through the same crap together.
Deborah, I love you so much, I'm typing it out here.
Feel my love through the internet :D
Yeah, we were meant to be BFFLs.
Here's to the future with our penthouse :D

Ungrateful.

2009-08-09T20:18:00.003+08:00

Deb, we took over 80 pictures yesterdayyyyyyy! ♥

commendation day

2009-08-07T19:29:00.004+08:00

You, like the normal human being, have a problem.

You, unlike the normal human being, take it out on other people.

I, a normal human being, realize you have a problem.

And I'm not gonna give a damn if you treat me like crap.

Because I'm a person too.

And people have feelings.

When they hurt, they hurt bad.

So I'm not gonna let you take control of how I feel just because you're screwed up.

---

Commendation Day.

The reharsal was manageable. The actual thing, however, was an entire different case.

No practice on how or where to usher the parents in.

No practice on when the GOH/Principal & Entourage goes in from reception. (No direction on that too )

No practice on how to serve food to distinguished guests.

GAH.

My initiative at its peak.

Running around the damn school in a blazer is MURDER. I don't suggest you do it. I tell you, the school really lacks manpower.(DESPITE THE FACT THAT I HAVE 35 COUNCILLORS. MINUS THE PRIZEWINNERS[2], THE PHOTOGRAPHER[1], THE USHERS[6], NO ONE STEPED UP TO VOLUNTEER HELP. But thanks Samantha, Farini and Sharan, for helping out with the food. I really appreciate it!) I pray that the next batch of Student Councillors comes in massive groups. I don't even mind personally training them, as long as when I step down, the Council won't die, like how it's dying now.

But my favorite part is definately serving the food with my PizzaFish.

It's nice, okayyyy. And Fish is healthy for you. But the dumb part was, I was saying this to all the guests and teachers: Fish, Ma'am/Sir?

It sounded like I was scolding them, so I tried to say it in my sweetest ever voice :/

Danced in the drizzle back home(:

I miss this picture(:

Off to Miniclip to reminisce the PSLE times:]

I think I finally found a better place to start ♥

why i can't live without my friends.

2009-08-06T19:38:00.002+08:00

McFlurries with Jawesome and V is loved.

We need to do this more often, girls, and laugh over our inability to hear or decipher(:

And we'll enjoy the ambience of watching volcanoes bloom rainbows :D

School was fine, it has been the same for about two weeks now, thank God.

Except Yuansheng and Arun haven't been coming so class has been, well, quiet. A sad, haunting quiet.

I love where I sit.

I'm surrounded by retarded people.

[ My cat is so cute, she barks (: ]

Prayers work miracles ♥

Dear friend,

this is a miracle in the making. And I'm damn sure about it.

Never doubt what God's graciousness can do.

Dear, you worked so hard for this. I know you can make it. Whatever happened, what definately not how it was meant to happen, because God loves us and wants to see us happy.

But He IS God, and He is gonna do everything in His power to rectify this.

Despite whatever, you're not alone. Just look at what happened when I was talking to you! So many people were concerned and that proves that they care.

When tribulations whack you in the face, where will you stand? God's side, isn't it?

I love you no matter what, and if this doesn't turn out the way we'd like it to, then fret not.

He has a much bigger plan for you.

But don't give up in desperation.

Seek His help and pursue on your dream, your talent.

Your God-given talent.

I'll always be hear to listen, okay?

♥

I never needed you to be strong. I never needed you to point out my wrongs. ♥

show who i am.

2009-08-03T19:25:00.002+08:00

The cruel reality of accepting what may be final seems to daunting a task for a mere little girl like me. I want to run free with you. Just when I think it's finally my turn, I glance in your way, and I see what others around you think. No, Anne. You can't do this. And I actually believe them. I understand why.

Why can't I pluck up the courage within myself to just tell you how I feel about you, me and the society? I wanna cry on your shoulder. I wanna laugh with you till my stomach hurts. I wanna take this indecisiveness away. But it's slowly eating my insides up, like an acid wash.

And I can feel myself slipping away.

Does anybody feel this way? ♥

why does love always feel like a battlefield?

2009-08-02T19:00:00.004+08:00

Truckloads of questions are floating through my head. And I want the answers.

How do I get to the point of total satisfaction of getting those results?

I need to know that you still care. If you do, that is.

Because if you don't, then I'll need to sort things out.

I still need to now, but with your answer, I'll clear more things.

Why are the odds against me? Is it a sign to tell me something?

Maybe it is.

That's why this hurts so much.

I'm sorry.

For thinking you didn't care.

For thinking that you were stuck-up.

For avoiding you like you were The Plague.

(Before a few days ago, I'd give anything to be by your side)

I'm just sorry for basically being mean.

How I wished I was shot by lightning when I saw your face.

Disappointed and embarassed.

Now I cannever talk to you again.

And neither will you talk to me.

---

Nicholas Tang Wei Ming.

You don't know how much I appreciate your friendship, you're truly awesome(:

Thanks for everything!

And we'll fight this battle together, yeah?

I never meant to start a war ♥

Run.

2009-07-31T19:47:00.004+08:00

I'll sing it one last time for you
Then we really have to
go
You've been the only thing that's right
In all I've done

And
I can barely look at you
But every single time I do
I
know we'll make it
anywhere
Away from here

Light up, light up
As if you have a choice
Even
if you cannot hear my voice
I'll
be right beside you dear

Louder
louder
And we'll run for
our lives
I can hardly speak I
understand
Why you can't raise your voice
to say

To think I
might not see
those eyes
Makes it so hard not to
cry
And as
we
say our long
goodbye
I nearly do

Dear Hannah Montana,

2009-07-30T21:59:00.002+08:00

OMG.YOU'RE FREAKING HILARIOUS!

:D:D:D:D

I WAS LAUGHING MY ASS OFF(STILL AM!)

HAHAHHAHAAAAAAA.

YOU'RE SO DAMN FUNNY, OHMYGOSHHHH!

Thanks!

Leave me your details, yeah, hun?

I'll put you somewhere in my will :D

Brave

2009-07-30T19:07:00.002+08:00

I am gonna grow fat and die.

I shall not elaborate any further.

Hung out at Joey's place after school, and decided to join her group for the SS project thing.

And i absolutely love this group :D

Joey, Bob Poke KaiSheeeee, Artiqah, Joanne & Dewi :D ♥♥♥

And now I've gotpaint all over my hands, but it's so funnnn!

I love wierd projects where I can paint! But I almost missed my busstop coz I was falling asleep on the bus :O

AHCRAP.

I've got Chemistry homework and I don't know how to do it!

I'm gonna dieeeeeee.

Oh, save me.

I'm not brave ♥

rain soaked beds.

2009-07-27T21:43:00.002+08:00

i hate the fact that i continually forget to close my windows and the weather chooses to be extremely wet on that particular day and hence, totally drench my bed.i might have to sleep on the floor today, due to sheer stupidity.gahh.

and sorry deborah.

i really didn't know you called :/

i gota problem!!!! zomg.

get online lah dey.

ponder over my wonders.

2009-07-27T15:06:00.002+08:00

Sometimes I wonder what people think.

Of me. Of themselves. Of life. Of things in particular.

How people think.

How they perceive things.

If they see it the way I do.

Because sometimes I think I look at things differently from other people, and it's not exactly a good thing :(

---

I was laughing my guts today during CD.

i love my classmates to bits i tell you.

So now my guts and my brains are outta my system.

My mind is gone, I'm spinning 'round. And deep inside, my tears I'll drown.

I'm losing grip, what's happening? ♥

we've made such fools of everyone.

2009-07-25T16:33:00.006+08:00

Look what we've become.

Mere dolls in lifeless, limp bodies.

No more emotions to hold us together.

No more feelings for there to be a friendship.

Eighth and Ocean Drive

With all the vampires and their brides

We're all bloodless and blind

And longing for a life

Beyond the silver moon

but now it's filled with evil clowns ♥

Contradiction.

2009-07-23T21:23:00.003+08:00

Isn't it totally possible for us to feel so alive at one point of time and yet die at the same time?

When we do something "fun" to make us feel "happy", isn't it possible that our actions create a negativity that can affect our souls?

Every action does have an equal and opposite action.

Contradiction.

And when we grow up, where will we be?

What if we are just grown up figurines of the same person we are today?

Won't we grow and progress in our walk in Life?

What if I don't?

---

ARGHTEACAR!

gahh. I can't wait for next week! :D

i(L)ylah.

---

Tomorrow is Miss Cyjay Wee's last day in Loyang.

Sad man.

Really, if you give her a chance, she's really just a sweet teacher.

Damn, I'm gonna miss her.

Do you know what's fighting for?

When it's not worth dying for ♥

Happy Birthday, Joanie! ♥

2009-07-20T18:11:00.005+08:00

HAPPY BIRTHDAY JOANA LOUISE JAMAICA LAURE JOSEPH!
I ♥ YOU LOTS!
Thankyou for listening to me every single time I had to cry or rant out something. You don't know what a blessing you've been to me, and how much you've influenced me to be a better person and leader. So, thankyou for everything, and I pray that God will keep you and protect you from anything that is not His will, and bless you with all the best things in this world.

Hmm, I think I'll pass blueberry jam now,and move to strawberry ice-cream.

I don't see me ever havin a future in the bluberry jam business, or jam business for that matter.

Ice-cream's good, I mean, with global warming, everyone can afford a few ice-creams each, right? So i'll make money! Ha.

Sunday Morning.

2009-07-19T18:50:00.002+08:00

I love walking around church, I don't know why, I just do.

And I love chatting with Deborah at the playground. We should call it ours, don't you think Deb? :D

And I don't know how I feel.

When there's nothing left to say, what can you do? I'm heavily broken ♥

Escape route.

2009-07-17T20:39:00.005+08:00

---

Amazement.

How a simple sheet of paper can shake your world. Reality check. Turn it upside down.

When all i could do was stare at the freaking thing and cry.

I didn't intend to, it just happened. I guess that's what happens when you care.

Life is short. Too short for us to waste it all away just hating one another, so why do we still do it? What happened today frightened me so much, i forgot to breathe. Again. Until my chest started hurting. Not so good for an asthma patient :(

I guess I know why I had to do it .So I'd find out. So thankyou, for asking me to do that particular job someone else could have done.

But to you, I will appear strong, even if my insides are crumbling down faster than the walls of Jericho did.

Because you were there for me so many times. You don't know how grateful I am to you. And you're just about perfect to me, so don't worry about anything, it'll all work out in the end. If it's not okay, it's not the end. Trust me on that.

----

Thankyou Bob, Dewi and Jiaxin.

Samantha and Delsar.

And Veronica Teng, for helping me forget about it, even for a while.

Goodbye now. Goodbye. ♥

38.3 degrees celsius D:

The test of Faith.

2009-07-14T21:18:00.002+08:00

Today a dear friend told me of a problem she had.

Spiritual attack.

When our faith is questioned on a platform as massive as the school, where will we stand? Will we buckle in and sucuumb to society? Or will we hold strong in what we believe in and hopefully suceed in standing our ground and making our point across?

What my friend had to go through today, damn I PRAY no one else has to go through. Torture in the most difficult manner ever. I've been down that path before, and that's why, my friend, I totally understand. It is possible to break through these barriers and come out stronger, both in spiritually and mentally. It will be hard, for now. But when you trust the Lord with all your heart, He will make everything okay. Submit yourself to Him. That's all you need to do. Give your life for Him. But dear, if the road gets too tough along the way, you know I'm here for you, to listen, to cry, to laugh, to talk.

i (L) you.

Don't doubt it.

---

Today was rather awesome. I love my new Tuesday Timetable mann.

Phys Ed, English, MotherTongue(Not that I enjoy it, the people are nice), Break and Add Math with 3E2. Seems to fly past. Monday was fast too, so I suppose all my Mondays will be the same. Not too sure if that's a good thing or not. Geez.

Well, Phys Ed; HANDBALL :D

Oh Handball, how I adore thee ♥

It is freaking fun. Fun cannot be a proper word to depict the exhuberance Delsar, Jolene and I felt among EVERYONE ELSE. I'd bet they felt the same too, but since I didn't ask everyone, I won't assume. For today. Ahh. Exhuberance seems to fit(:

Started on a new topic for English today. Which reminds me I have English homework to do and I haven't started on it yet. Damn.

Mother Tongue was blah.

Add Math was fun.

History Tutorial flew by. I thought it was supposed to be for an hour, but Mr Mohammad told us 45 minutes. Which was like, yay. But he made it only alf an hour, because he said he couldn't continue too much, because a quarter of our class didn't attend tutorial.

OH.

GOOD LUCK JIAXIN FOR YOUR CHINESE O LEVELS. Even though by now, the paper would have been over and done with a LOOOOOONG time ago.

When the oceans rise and thunders roar,

I will soar with you above the storm. ♥

Dirty little lies.

2009-07-12T20:45:00.002+08:00

I was losing myself to somebody, but now I see.

I'm everything you're not.

Hey, look! I'm made of substance!

HASTEA.

No matter what, it's good to know you can count on your real friends and that you know who they are. And I'm here for you, okay? No matter what. I trust you. I really do. And it's nice to know you treat me as a good friend. And yes, you really do rock.

Confidence.

2009-07-10T14:27:00.000+08:00

When confidence becomes an issue.

Who am I? What am I?

When my whole world crashes just because of the simple phrase : What if.

Confidence is easily forged, and conceals all the lies that break on the inside.

But what if I don't want to lie anymore? What if I can't lie anymore?

What do I tell you? What can I say?

But what if I don't wanna say anything about everything anymore.

Does that make me evil? Does it make me selfish?

I don't wanna be deemed as inconfident anymore. I don't wanna be noticed as the girl who doesn't make in impact because she's afraid to. I don't wanna be viewed as the "quiet one", because that isn't me.

It never was and will never be.

I've tried every remedy and nothing seems to work on me ♥

Phototaking(:

2009-07-09T17:19:00.000+08:00

CLASS PHOTO WITH 3E1'08!

I LIKEEEEEEE.

Class went like any other day.

After school went to Coffee Express with Bukhary, Jolene and Syakir and saw the entire phototaking crew there. They recognized us, I think by the uniforms, and the photographer waved at us :D

Went home and then went back down to Subway with my sister.

GUESS WHAT.

THEY HAVE A NEW GIRL THERE(:

She came in when my sister and I were ordering.

My sister is gonna steal my prospective job, she wants to work at Subway now D:

LYZA GLEEBIEL:

Don't worry, dear. You and I both know you can do this. Once again, don't doubt even for a moment, dear. Just have faith, He will make everything ok.

Please don't tell me I'm the only one who's vulnerable. ♥

♥ Handball

2009-07-08T19:41:00.000+08:00

Phys Ed lessons are love man.

It's so damn funny, especially when you're not playing along, but rather observing what's going on, because there's so much more you can actually see, compared then when you're out there playing handball.

Laughed my guts out :D

Chemistry flew by really fast.

Physics was okay too and I can bravely say I learnt something, and kudos to me, for passing the pop quiz. 10/11 isn't too bad, right?(:

Recess-ed in class to finish up my worksheet on Electricity.

Social Studies was fun too, Miss Shaheeda came into class and she was like " Okay, class, I'm gonna test y'all on Good Governance in Singapore. And I'm gonna quiz those whose names begin with A"

No prizes for guessing who was questioned.

Anyhoos, the question she asked me was relatively easy, and she ended up asking everybody who had an A in their names, which is like, 3/4 of my class! :D

Math was mundane.

But at least I finally cleared the exercise books!

JOY.

And I texted Veronica the entire day, hahah.

Yay to our Physics tests(:

And Subway-ed with Joey, Arun, Xianjing, Kaishi(SWINEFLUUU!),Dewei and Yuansheng(:

CREEPY SHIT MAN.

I don't wanna do HeyMath at all D:

I used to hate to see you wrong. ♥

2009-07-07T19:58:00.000+08:00

If I could, I would murder you with my bare hands.

If it weren't a sin.

If it weren't such a taboo.

If only.

Oh, and thanks Shawn! I seem to be having troubles viewing your tagboard :/

Find me

2009-07-07T11:55:00.000+08:00

They say a picture paints a thousand words.

What happens when you can't even find that picture?

Someone's gotta go ♥

2009-07-05T17:58:00.000+08:00

Depict.

I'm taking back my love

2009-07-05T17:28:00.000+08:00

Hidden agendas.

Broken promises.

Secret conversations.

And I thought I could trust you.

Why didn't you just tell me in my face? Why did you have to go get other people involved?

Gahh, I might have done something insanely wrong to you,but I don't see the sin. I honestly and sincerly did what I thought was decent enough and inviting to all who were present.

Gosh.

And you knew I'd rather not talk to this person. Yet you went ahead anyway.

What do you want me to do now?

I thought you were different. I thought wrong, didn't I?

Yes ,we all have flaws, and I've accepted you for yours.

Can't you see that I'm trying to be my best for you?

I don't mean to sound snobby or anything, but I have a social circle, and I want to please all of them if I can. And if I keep spending all my time with you, I don't really think that's fair.

Do you?

I'm sorry if you thought I made you follow me around, I thought you wanted to meet people, and you felt awkward around people you didn't know. I won't do it again, I promise.

It's not really all about you, you know.

And to you,

I understand you were just trying to help, but maybe, just maybe next time before you judge, you should find out both sides of the story first.

Thank you SMOB for the Oreo-thingy, my small group and I loved itttttttt.

You're an awesome cook/chef/baker-ess lah!

I totally see your future :D

AHH.

Ng Meizhi, I miss you alot lah.

It's been a really long time since I saw you like, two weeks in a row.

And thankyou for listening and sharing; for encouraging me. You really are the awesomeawesome baby lah :D

Jamming was enlightening.

Thankyou Charlotte,for everything(:

Shab, if you read this, I'm still not over the thing you told me just now.

Total EWW(:

See me through, this aching heart has come so far. ♥

Happy Birthday Chocolate Penguin!

2009-07-05T00:58:00.002+08:00

Happy Birthday Delsar Phua!

I love you lah Chocolate penguin :D

Honestly, I;m glad I have you as a friend and that we have things in common, espescially our dislike towards a particular someone. (Okay, that's evil) But I hope you had a fantabulous day today, and I'm sorry you couldn't join us today. I bet you had fun, though, coz you always know how to havefun even in the most boring situations :D ILYL!

When everyone falls into their own fantasises at nightfall, I stay awake and wonder.

Why? Why now? Why me?

Things I don't think I'm prepared for are happening.

I take it all in my stride.

It's not the fear of change, but rather the fear of what's gonna happen next?

In this situation, change is the best option we have.

I'll take it as the ONLY option we have.

But to wait a few more years?

Will I last that long?

Why can't we just go through now?

Just because I'm fifteen? You can't wait that long.

Things could potentially be dangerous if we wait.

It's ultimately your decision, but it'd affect my life.

Just make a smart decision, okay?

whoa. my mother says I look Chindian in my display picture because of my eyes.

Spending all my time,stuck in yesterday. ♥

hey friend,

2009-07-03T20:20:00.000+08:00

I want you to know.
That it doesn't matter, where we take this road.
But someone's gotta go, so I'm already gone.
And I want you to know, you couldn't have loved me
better.
But I want you to move on,
so I'm already gone ♥
-Kelly Clarkson; Already Gone.

Thank you for what you did. You don't understand how much better you made me feel. And hey, I'm sorry. For everything. And yeah, I guess we're not that all different(:

Ghost Stairs.

2009-07-03T18:11:00.000+08:00

Today was good, I guess.

Pop quiz for Social Studies, and since I'm so amazing, I was one of the last few to hand in, I had to fill up the details for the principle on meritocracy for Good Governance.

Thankfully, Miss Shaheedah was nice to me. And now, I think I won't ever forget this portion on the chapter :)

Physics was tough. Because I missed Mdm Quek's lessons yesterday and the class started on a new topic.

Element Math was easy to catch up on; Everyday Math, conversion of currency.

Chemistry is LOVE.

The homework I had to hand in today was complicated, but I loved today's lesson.

The MOLEEEEE.

damn bloody funny.

watermoleons.
moletiplication.

to mole or not to mole that is the question.

haha.

Left with Xianjing, Dewei, Nadirah, Junaidah and Nasyitah to e!hub for Subway. Met Yuansheng outside Subway. The girls went to McCafe, after, coz Nas wanted the doublechoc frappe, the exact same drink I used to be hooked on! So I stayed with the guys and ate our subs and cookies. And suddenly I wanted to give someone a hug, the person looked so sad! D:

Followed the guys to Whitesands, and OMG. These people are dumb! HAHAHAH. Reflective surfaces :D

The library needs to re-sort the books in the catalogue. Why on earth are there books on pregnancy in the children's department?!?!?!?

Gahh.

And yay to the books on the 5th aisle :D HAHAHAAAAAAA.

"How not to get married to a jerk"! Yuanshenggggggg, you dumb lah.

Met V, Kaishi (SWINEFLUUUUUUU!!!!!) and Jolene at McD's with other NP people.

So The guys and I, V, Kaishi and Jolene met Arun at McD's too, and they told me a story of the Ghost Stairs! Which they saw yesterday at Whitesands. Apparently the 2nd floor Stairs went to a dead end. Which was dumb, so I said I wanted to see it. They led me to it, but only Arun, Jolene, Yuansheng and I went it. And guess what. IT ENDS UP AT THE BUBBLETEA SHOP.

LMAOROTFL.

So the 4 of us bought our drinks and went back up, pretending that we saw something. Hey, the screaming we did were actually believeable. Good thing Security didn't come :D

This used to be a funhouse ♥

Cry out your soul.

2009-07-02T21:03:00.000+08:00

The walls just stare at me, accusingly.

What did I do wrong?
Everything.

I try to flavor them, parallel to whatever I'm trying to do to Life.

Yet it seems as if I'm asking for Heaven and Hell to collide.

Decisions to make, the uncertainty of the future in my Hands.

I look up to my Father in Heaven, yet it seems like I've lost him along the way when my faith started to shake. Well now it's crumbling and falling. But I know what I'm supposed to do. I want to run to the altar and cry out, but I can't. I cannot bring myself to accept the state my life is in.

I have given up hope on everything that ever really mattered. And now I have to start afresh like a new kid again.

For now, all I do is console myself, by believing that someone else out there in this cold, sad world is suffering way much more painfully - in every sense of the word.

But my pain, the one I feel inside, have become too accustomed to being contained. I guess I should just let it remain that way.

But I wanna run for it.

Run until my legs give way.

Until the bones grind against each other.

I wanna feel the wind slash against my face.

I want to let my hair ripple through the air.

Let my hands swing like they have before.

Allow the adrenalin to sweep my off my feet.

To be able to cry, and yet not let anyone know the real reason.

I have lost faith in everything I once believe in.

Every single thing. Every single person. Every single reason.

break the dawn ♥

Die Headache.

2009-07-02T15:27:00.000+08:00

HAPPY BIRTHDAY VENUS CHUAAAAAAA!
Damn, I can't believe I was so dumb, I stayed up till midnight just so I could wish you Happy Birthday and I forgot what I stayed up for :/ UBER SORRY! Well, enjoy your birthday Junior PA :D I LOVE YOU LAH SEH.

Damn, Headache.
Major.
Oh shucks.

I'll leave when the wind blows ♥

with my whole heart.

2009-07-01T23:17:00.000+08:00

Death- the permenant termination of life.

Hey You.

You know I love you with my whole heart.

And in times like these, I wish I could hold your hand the entire way, so you won't be scared or confused. Unfortunately, love, this is a path I've never ventured onto before. So it's really up to you now, this is something you have to go thorugh head-first. But I promise you, I won't be far behind. Just turn around whenever you have to, and I'll be there; to give you a smile, to share a hug, to encourage you.

Undoubtly, Death is a big word of little letters. If only we go turn back time to when this word was created, just so we could change it to something more disastrous sounding, just so people will understand the seriousness and density of the word with one glance. I don't think anybody saw it coming. Nobody expected this person to end life at such a tender age. But we'll never trully understand what happened in her life, the secret goes with her. But we can remember her for the days when she inspired and encouraged others. For I'm sure she did.

But see the hope, the Promise. Renewal that comes with the tragedy. Sun with the rain. People will change so will views. Pray for strength, and a revival of faith for all those who questioned God. Because, dearie, He's GOD. Who are we, then? Miniature dolls? Everything happens for a reason, so why do we doubt?

When heartaches come and one's alone, a
sister's love will still be shown.
At times she just speaks with her eyes.
No words are needed, no replies.
-Molly Mae Miller.

I never needed you to be strong.♥

Dear Deborah,

2009-06-30T23:36:00.000+08:00

Dear Deborah,

I guess you can say we've come to a point where we can feel each other's feelings through a simple text. Sigh.I'm not so sure if that's a good thing. It's nice to know that you know something the entire world doesn't.

Anyway, the past 5 days have been a blast. Let's try a week! Tha last time we met consecutively, it was four days, so we did break the record :D

You may have a bus, maybe next I'll have a Plane? :D Thankyou for everything. For not minding my retardedness. Though I can't beat you in that sector:] For watching me laugh, then laugh with me. Scream out loud with me. Dance in the middle of the sidewalk. Get wet in the rain. Air-guitar outside the chapel :DDD Teaching me how to play the piano. Walking around Pasir Ris just aimlesslyjust so I can gush.Thankyou for taking me in, flaws and all. Thankyou for listening. For sharing. For knowing. For anticipating. But mostly for being honest with me every single time, even if it hurt me, coz you know that it's the best for me. You won't hide the facts. Which is what true friends do. So thankyou. And regarding what I said yesterday, I'm serious.

Oh and by the way, this is why I think yorhe will choose the bus.

-They are fast.

-Efficient.

-Reliable.

-They carry smart people, so I guess they're smart too :D

-You can laugh like hell on a bus and no one will stop you. Try doing that anywhere else. People will just give you The Stare and will silence you on pure eye power.

-Most other kinds of transportation is noisssssy. Loud.

Oh, when we do get our penthouse,promise me we'll clip a brightpink clothespeg to a pair of jeans and invite people over? And you'll make us mini-sandwiches? Please? And then we'll get a taxi and scoot down to the bomb-shelter thingy under my block, sit on it and just stare at the stars, just us, BFFs? And you'll never leave me alone in a lift with someone I've just recently had a tiff with, no matter the circumstances?

You can't make it feel right when it's wrong. ♥

R.I.P Farrah Fawcett.

2009-06-26T19:50:00.001+08:00

This is just so Farrah Fawcett isn't overshadowed in her death by the death of Michael Jackson. Rest in Peace, Farrah. Your battle is done. You did your part. It's time to relax now.

Damn, Jazlyn is so easy to talk to. Major thankyou to you :D

And now I shall go out and help my mom make muahchee. I LIKE! :D

It's like boy meets girl ♥

At Elle's.

2009-06-23T16:34:00.000+08:00

At Elle's house now, blogging. And her room is uber cool. There's like Elmo and Spongebob EVERYWHERE. Me likey. She wrote my name on a purple pencil and gave it to me. Me likey that too :) She tried to teach me how to solve the Rubik's cube, but with someone with an attention span of 5 seconds like me, I lost her the moment she said "inverse". Mann. That's so Math-y.

And ZOMG. Jon and Kate form the reality show are freaking divorcing. WHYYYYYYY?! Think of their 8 kids mann.

"The show MUST go on!"- Kate Gosselin.

I ssssooooooo can't wait for tomorrow. Picnic in the afternoon then bowling later on :D OH JOY.

Dear Lysian Chorale, does ANYBODY know ANYTHING about AHS' invitation for their Performance on the 30th? Damn. We need a proper Commitee.

Forgive my broken promise that you'll never see me cry ♥

UPDATE.

2009-06-22T17:05:00.000+08:00

Heyhey! I'm updating for Veronica and Deborah. I'm in Veronica's house and living like a freaking bimbo. But it's fun! HAHAA. And Jazlyn and Shakila are funnehbunnehs. Gosh. So here's a quick update on what happened to me since the last time I updated. I took Barry's advice! :D

SCIENCE CENTRE OUTING.
I went out with Delsar, Venus and Sharaniya. Got on the MRT and stopped over at Simei to buy a Slurpee, but they didn't have the Giant ones, so we took an ID photo instead :D Went to the Expo and walked the entire strectch of Halls and didn't accomplish anything productive. Got freaking lost at the freaking Airport. Stuck there for one hour just because we couldn't find the exit.Almost got lost at Penjaru Something coz the taxi driver couldn't find Penjaru Close.
MOVIE WITH LYZA.
Ghost of Girlfriends' Past. FUNNY LIKE HELL. But Lyza had to leave halfway, so I ended up watching majority of the movie on my own.
MOVIE WITH MITZI.
Hannah Montana. Yay Shab, I actually watched it already :D
BOWLING.
With my cousins. Freaking funny, coz it was the first time I ever played. and I freaking suck. But it's so funnnnnnnnn:)
JAMMING SESSION.
Didn't do anything, except catch up with Jazlyn, damn. She's nice.
TODAY.
Out at Veron's house. Painting our nails takes like 2 WHOLE HOURS? and it still came out screwed :D Weuuuay to eat, and the Subway Sandwich Artists know me and what i want! haha, yay!

I tell you, I go to Subway too much, I'll just die if I don't get it.
Die.
Drop and wither till I die.
Damn.

Life has moments hard to describe, feeling great, feeling alive. Never coming down from this mountain we're on. ♥

Holidays be gone,

2009-06-13T16:53:00.000+08:00

The ridiculousity of it all.

I'm wasting my time, waiting for schol to start.

Maybe coz it ended on such a high.

Maybe coz my mundane life's too damn boring for me.

Falling faster, barely breathing, give me something to believe in, tell me it's not all in my head. ♥

RIZAZA.

2009-06-12T15:29:00.001+08:00

RIZAAAAAAAAA.

I MISS YOU TOO LAH.

AND YOU SEE, BECAUSE YOU DON'T HAVE A BLOG, I'LL HAVE TO REPLY HERE.

oh well.

BECAUSE I LOVE YOU SO, I'LL DO THIS.

And let's kick back and watch this space morph into a tag reply board.

:DDDD

you lift my feet off the ground, and spin around, you make me crazier,crazier. ♥

SHALALALA.

2009-06-11T10:27:00.000+08:00

I know Sharaniya will read this so:

OI. WHERE'S YOUR TAGBOARD?!?!?!?!

AND I LOVE YOUR BLOG SONG.

ABSOLUTELY LOVE.

THE ULTIMATE LOVE MAN.

AHHHHH.

could it be that we have been this way before? ♥

Hi Twitter :D

2009-06-10T15:42:00.000+08:00

HELLO TWITTER!

HAHA, finally, I'm on Twitter :D

And I only have 5 friends, it's so sad. Joana, Amanda, Elizabeth, Miss Allyson. Oh no. That's 4! HAHAHA. GO JOIN TWITTER AND FOLLOW ME :D Or just click the link under "I'm your soul" on the right :D

I've got people following me! And I don't even know them :/

*sigh*

Singapore's 18th case of H1N1.

Got nothing but time on our hands! This time we're not giving up, let's make it last forever ♥

This one's for Shawny,

2009-06-09T15:54:00.000+08:00

HEY SHAWN!

THIS ONE'S FOR YOU!

ANNE 3, SHAWN 0!

(which kinda reminds me of the gabe-anne game thingy, which i won by a thousand million points :] )

This should give you an idea how lame Shawn and I can get. Yeah lah, Shawn, you rock lah. Happy? See, I'm so nice :D

Pictures frozen in time are becoming clearer ♥